to be added this week to a kind of record each week added to: part VI

VI.I am as I age wrestling with the idea of affirmationa long death scene follows which I do not make upwhen I return turn when I return the idea of a roomcome on now they have his hands come on now rubberfingers in mouth in arsehole inside a rummage sale ofpublic private interests like you when I return the ideait’s not the first time you are dying and you have neverbeen disabled in my sight you have been old before youbefore you have been a woman and you and have beenthe child of a woman come on now like you I return turnto at no instant where hesitation has a chance of beingbeing thrown by the who said the dark lady who said II have heard borne witness to grown men screaming whenundergoing this procedure I climb in and out of bedlike you new angel angel new I cannot turn my eyesaway each thing returns at every instant I like youheap up before myself