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I think this will be the last one of this series, it is #31

XXXI.getoveryourself or you should know when to stop are not the same pieces of advice but you are not listening to me you are looking at the image of an idiot on the screenan idiot boy Bolaño says—right in my ear—the image of an idiot boy—and

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XXX.Do not speak this blessingitwillenslaveyouwe did not know he penetrated her apart from her expressionblank possibly drugged mysticaland should peace peace is a sheeta cool white sheet a clean and ironed oneexpressionlesssoothing easy eyes good tears dripping in excess is it from their foldssecreting oraclesa dribble is a gathering

nearly 30 and over half a year later now #29

XXIX.bloodspots on the strawberry hemlaughter in the treeslike with like againI am surrounded in my disbeliefby wonderful and inexplicable reasonsa needle is suspended in the airthreads the sky its originsthe fictions of a scientific feelingother than thatthe world parts its lipsthrough the watertrail your fingertipsDavid the sky todaydeep azureand

A passage from Secret Passages in a Hillside Town by Pasi Ilmari Jääskeläinen introducing some of the key concepts of the cinematic life

“A person’s life doesn’t consist of just one story but of many, some of them consecutive and others overlapping. While one story is a comedy, another may be a melodrama, or a thriller. It’s important to recognize every incipient story’s genre and let the deep cinematic

contd. (you can always catch up by going to a kind of record at the top of the lefthand margin) number twenty-eight of the series

XVIII.it is ultimately sensuousyour scarfmy beardpornographyto be humanfaces the challengeofmy poetryand what it meansyour laughter isI behind Ideeplyis how you meanhow you meanto proceedoriginallyweave the futureand a future in recoila kind of recordof sexualityfrom here thehorizon begins the looping of a spinekind of human calligraphy

another of a kind follows

XXVII.is it hope brings you here today to my office to my study to my surgery to my roomi can feel you pressing your breast on the curtain your breath your blood on the curtainwho is your people is your apology for what are they what is it I’

watch a kind of record every week by clicking on this name in lefthand margin or watch this week’s episode No. 26 below continuing

XVI.Two of these things I cannot live withoutlive without anticipationlive without the expected or the unexpectedlive without a long time leftlive without lovelive without my heart is brokenlive without my homelive without lost timelive without the wit of the old queerslive without wine or Russian vodkalive without affordable tobaccolive